Thursday, April 28, 2016

Welcome Back

It's been several months since I have made a post on here.
Trying to get back into some kind of habit has proven more challenging than I imagined.

Why did I quit blogging my sermon material?
Quite frankly, it just started to become more of burden than a blessing.
The idea of having to post something every week was affecting me in a negative way.
There were too many late night Saturday nights when I truly should have been sleeping and resting up for Sunday activities and instead I'm here trying to get this sermon all typed out the way I felt I needed to exactly say something for Sunday morning. I don't know that I truly understand how to blog. Sometimes I want to "dump" my thoughts and feelings out, but I'm not sure I want others to see them. My feelings might cause a quarrel or, maybe nobody will read them at all and then it completely feels like a waste of time. Well, my weekly numbers prior to stopping my blogging show that someone was coming to the page. Checking in today, I can see there are still people coming by to see the page even though nothing has been posted since November. I've had some kind of audience, but practically no interjection from outside sources.

I think the other matter for myself to consider is that this kind of forum is not exactly where a finished sermon needs to be posted. Maybe, the idea of studying & playing out one's ideas and then the finished sermon product need to be separate. I am certainly the kind of person that is concerned with the final product. But, do I do enough preparation in the lead up to the final copy? Maybe I should use this place for that. (I might just be talking to myself here. Thanks for playing along.)

There is also the matter of trying to make a name for one's self.
I know in my heart that I was knocking way too hard on the door of fame and fortune.
There are lots of well known writers and authors who do this kind of thing for a living.
Why not try to get in on a piece of that pie? Somewhere in the last couple of months this scripture has come before my eyes. It has revealed to me my true intentions in beginning to blog.

Philippians 2:3-4

New International Version (NIV)
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.

This whole venture cannot be about me. 
So, I will continue to post. If people read this stuff, so be it. I can't be concerned about what I can't control. If it helps someone, great. If I get one "hit" this week, that's all I get.  

There have been moments when I felt as if a weight was lifted off my shoulders. 
This is one of those times. I think this new direction will be a good thing.

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